All About Aidil...

not again...

2006-12-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

haiz.... after one week of MCs due to my minor surgery last wk...back to camp again tomorrow....haiz so boring like fu** i hate to go back there, it's hell in there man~ if i wanna talk bout...it'll never end... let's talk something else... yeah this coming weekend i will be goin to Malaysia, KL yeah man!!!! after so many months...years at last !!!! hahahahaha my in laws is goin to celebrate aidiladha over there...so my wife and danish keep pestering me to go.... so it's a "yes". looking forward for the KL trip next wk.... hope it's an amazing one coz i don want to waste my time over there for such a 'wasted' trip... if u guys know wat i mean... ok cheers for now.... \m/

Funeral for a friend - History

2006-12-22T08:47:00.000+08:00

my favourite song babe!!!!!! taken from the album 'Hours' by funeral for a friend....

Dear friends of this academy
Oh, Romeo is bleeding to death..
To see a friend bleed to death
What for, some kind of metaphor
That I can't see..So I'll drink until I see it.
This sky will make me sick,So I'll give up on you,I'll give up on this.
This sky will make me sick,So I'll give up on this,I'll give up on you.

[Chorus]Archers in your arches,Raise your fingers for one last salute..
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine.

So you want to hold me up and bring me down?
Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down
I don't care for your sweet scentOr the way you want me more than I want you.
I don't care for your sweet scentOr the way you want me more than I want you.[Chorus x2]It's all mine.. it's all mine.. it's all mine...

Hari raya outing....

2006-11-05T09:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday jln raya was fantastic... meet up old folks from ITE Clementi.. but sadden fairuz and kumar the jokers didnt turn up cause of work... haiz next time lar babe perhaps...
yesterday was fun with wifey and danish along...danish cried on the 1st trip to wifey place at pasir ris... think 'tak sabar nak jumpe nenek and atuk die kat pasir ris' hehehehe... after dat he behave well... the upcoming 3 months boy was really adorable yesterday... he talk as if nobody's business... he bubbles as if this world is his alone... his feedings feeds him as if he didnt get feed for years....muahahaha ok ok muhammad danish basically u are adorable just like his mummy...

2nd house rite after pasir ris we went to dilah house in tampines... like usual every year.... my favourite nasi ayam her mom cook... muahahahaha i ate pretty much to fill up my 16 L tank...

3rd house my long lost jamming buddy and lepak buddy.. khai @ bedok this time her mom cook nasi lemak...tempting 'gila babi punya' there u go... i ate again... hahahaha feels so good to meet khai at last...

4th house to saadiah's place @ woodlands the last house for me cause my boy need rest... it was already 10 when we reach woodlands, shag to the max... this time spaghetti(not sure if this spells correctly) and chicken wing... wow both my favourite... there u go.. i ate again... hahaha 3 in straight rows.. nasi lemak, nasi ayam and spaghetti with chicken wing... wow

anyway thanks for making this happen guys... thanks to everyone who is involve in this year hari raya outing... thanks to khai to 'jemput' us to his house... thanks and many many thanks... eh guys 'gambar kalau dah update send ar babe tunggu ape lagik?'

thanks to wifey and danish u have been great in my life...both of u are adorable..thanks without you i cant make this happen on my own..thanks to my parents which support me all the way and to wifey parents thanks for accepting me... love you guys all... and mom get well soon... danish needs granny....hehehe ok lar guys will update soon.... bubyyeee SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

been a while....

2006-08-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo...wassup ma bloggy~ it's been a while though.... ok ok ok settle down ladies and gentlemen.... cause there's a lot of things that i would like to say about...

First of all i would like to say many sorry-ies to all my friends that i've "dumped" for quite a while. Have been busy with personal things.... secondly, like to say many thanks to everyone that have been supporting me for wat i am and on wat i'm doin and all the decisions that i've made.

I'm a married man ryte now... yeah ryte i'm married... to all who attend my wedding invitation on the 21/06/06 thanks and to all which i didnt mentioned or forget or too far to contact, sorry...cause it was really really really a last minit thingy. Yeah i hope ya guys understand.

Being a married personnel is not easy. A lot of commitments goin on and i'm beginning to act like a man now. Act is not a good word though it's to be like a man..yeah it's a good word to replace..heh~

To cut it short, i'm becoming a father..... and will be expecting a son sometime this month.... "Md Danish" the name. My beloved son i hope you will grew up a somebody. Love ya son. And too my beloved wife i love ya with all my heart and soul... sorry if i ever hurt ya....i love ya hunny...i'll be a good one i promise...

Would like to have a gd house, a gd car, a gd family, a gd carrer and all the good things in life.... but 1st i must complete my 1 1/2 year to go NS.... shrugsss..... ok guys got to run will continue when i have the time.... bye bye

Regards
Lance Corporal Aidil <---(must be proud of your rank) hahahahahaha

lost in apathy...

2006-03-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

hey bloggy..hw r ya? sori havent been update for so so long...

rite now i can feel the ... down, sorrow, pain, apathy, guilty etc.... i'm really lost... what done cant be undone, i feel so useless if i dont react... i try my very best lil one... but pls forgive me i cant have ya by myside tonight, i cant have ya baby.... i cant cuddle ya like every father in this world does, i cant feed ya like every father does, i'm a useless one.... i really regret on what happen ... but i never ever regret loving ya hunz.... it happened so fast like a speeding bullets that kills.... i love ya hunz and ya too... when everything is back too normal i promise i wont let ya down like what ur best fren say.... i will protect ya in the future to come..... this is what i promise to ya, ur best fren and the bloggy.... rite now i'm writing with tears, i donnow y am i feeling so mentally distressed..... losing that is like losing someone that u really love most..... sorrows sanked deep inside my blood now...don't mourned for me as u are not the one to place the blame....

i'm sorry Elly Natasha ~

uncontrolled....

2006-03-09T10:31:00.000+08:00

uncontrolled spaces
lifeless til provoked
deep uncharted oceans
nonexistent til claimed
great raging fires

Silent.......

when there is no one
when no one is mine
the no one is me
the no one is me

Me..............

tall reaching branches
pointless to even try
countless flaming cities
measured without costall-seeing eyes

inside the orchard
there's a scent of devilry
as was in my heart(...the sweetness overripe...)
rancid in attempt
to overcome the shackles
if only the soil could hold
without stories to tell

the wide open wound
won't heal without purpose
it never stops
the wide open wound
that never heals

Never Heals..........

The No ONE is Me........

Leave me alone for sometime......

2005-12-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

Whoever you are out there.... juz leave me alone for sometime..... need to hibernate a while.....

Booking in for camp..... see ya peeps around i guess.....take care.....

Silence................................................................

it's over....

2005-12-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

staring at the sky high wondering when will this be over ? how come there's no stars tonite? where's all the stars gone? are they scared to show up themselves ? or are they a coward juz like i am?

always thought that relationships are meant to be broken.... and friendships always stays... but today i learned something new..... friendships are meant to be broken.... should have done something but i think i've done it enough...... i'm not sure where did it went wrong? could it be nad's harsh words on the bloggy ? i really donnow.... i could not even say ur name infront of nad... how can i convinced her? i thought u are my bestest frens among my bestest fwens.... a lil issues like this and u want it to be over? wth? for 2 years i've not even put words on ya....put an issues on ya....i will always smile when i see ya? but now? what kind of a best fwen are ya if ya dun even wanna listen to what my explaination is? stress overcome me and now this? wat more buddy? try to be in my shoes..... what will ya do? i cant say much... i'm scared i will hurt the other party.....and i know u're hurt too coz of nad's bloggy.... i know i understand..... but like i say i cant even say ur name infront of her.... try to be in my shoes buddy..... juz for once understand me..... !!!! should've done something but i've done it enough by the way your hands were shaking rather waste my time with ya....

--------------------------------------- END ----------------------------------------------

2003 - 2005

only to my beloved one~ Erisyah ~

2005-12-13T08:10:00.000+08:00

I reckon when you read this i'll be gone already.... to serve the nation to make my nation proud of me...haha ok bullshit.....
Seriously when ya read this sayang i'll not be here to be with you... to spend time with ya... juz wanna let ya know i'll swear i'll love ya with all my heart out..... trust me pls.... i beg ya ~ here's a lil something from me....

Misha Omar - Ku Seru

Ku Membayangi...Jiwa Hatimu
Tapi Perpisahan Menunggu
Ku Ingin Membelaimu
Namun Kasihku Tiada Restu

Diri Begini...Kerna Selama
Ditinggalkan Marah Sengsara
Hingga Hilang Terlupa
Siapa Aku Sebenarnya Sayang....

Oh...Dengarlah Sayu Tangisanku
Mengapa Degupanmu Ku Seru
Kerna Kesepian nan Terlalu
Kembalikan Hidup yang Ku Rindu

Oh...Dengarlah Sunyi Tangisanku
Kau Tahu Ku Amat Menyayangimu
Oh Pergilah Kau Bukan Milikku
Pulang Pada Yang Mengasihi... Dirimu...
(Kau Ku Seru...Kesepian Berlalu...Maafkan Daku)

Sampai Disini
Ku Lepas Kau Pergi
Biar Ku Damai Bersemadi
Lukamu Ku Mengerti
Kan Ku Hilangkan Derita...Ini...

Signing off for NS.... Aidil a.k.a Garfield

garfield - less than 12 hours

2005-12-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

Goin NS liao !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Recruit reporting.... less than 12 hours got to report to JALAN BAHAR CAMP @ 10am sharp.

Juz got back from movie Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam 2 @ JB with my beloved one Nadz aka Erisyah. The movie was nice. Enjoy my day before NS with my beloved one. Hope she miss me while i'm gone....hehehehe.... Nadz i hope tmr ya wake up in time for my camp....really need ya this time....know ya tired, sleepy but will ya get tired juz to spare me some time? will ya rather sacrifice ur sleep then seeing me after next 2 weeks when i book out? i'm really unsure....
all the times that we had this 4 months, i really enjoy it.....the screaming and yelling was for ya coz i love ya, i wanna change ya, i wan ya open ya eyes big and see that i'm the only one for ya, no one else.... u muz be sleeping now... which i dun mind... juz hope that ya wake up tmr and at least call me....? u will always be the one in my eyes... and yes if ya see this blog it means that i've met my best frend, ELLY. yes elly the one which ya feel so jealous about, which u feel so hatred about..... i met her juz nw at my place...coz she wanting to see me for the last time before i go in for camp. she gave me my bday present which was suppose to be given on the 5th of july during my bday. Pls honey dun be jealous again? i called in juz nw wanting to tell ya that i'm meeting my best fren but yan told me that u were sleeping and i do not wish to disturb ya coz i know that my hunz dun like ppl to disturb when ya're asleep. I met elly about 30 mins coz she got to rush for mann's place. She promised mann to meet. Mann knows that she's meeting me. And its ok.... i'm telling ya all this coz i dun want any confusion made or any misunderstanding.... i love ya hunz... and only ya....ya shud know by now ayte? pls dun get jealous. it's only a 30 mins meeting..... juz to pass me what's mine.....dats all...pls hunz dun be jealous....i'm sorry..... i love ya....

Signing out for NS now..... Aidil a.k.a Garfield

tiring....

2005-11-13T02:29:00.000+08:00

juz got back from hari raya outing...

today was my happiest day coz this year i will be celebrating hari raya with someone that i loved most...like last year i was all alone....haha
went to ard 4 to 5 houses today....which is similar to last year. Environment wont be cheerful without the 2 jokers by the side... kumar and fairuz.... and as usual i will be as crazy as they are if we meet. taking pictures here and there donnow how many times...hahaha thanks for the pic adyah and the videos too....all seems happy even my hunz but that smiles that she make mean a lot to me....hides her sadness away....i know hunz still not happy, i know she's still insecure bout the environment ard us, i know she is sick, i know she needs someone to councel her, to pamper her, to spend time with her everyday. Most of the things i've done it hunz...almost everything in the list i've done....."almost" let me rephrase "almost". But y muz she behave in that way. y cant she behave normally like i do ? like other ppl do ? "i'm sorry hunz, maybe i'm juz sick in the brain" dat's wat she will say to me....i really donnow hunz... i really donnow whether u have make an effort to change it all when u are with me....sometimes i find her over friendly too....she likes talking... which i cant blame her....she will be "ceria" a.k.a happy if she find someone to talk to...she can even joke and play ard with someone which she juz knew...dats how friendly she can be....i like dat hunz....really i like to see u cheerful, i dont like my hunz to be moody. i swear upon my life i like dat. But how about me hunz? did u ever ask me wat i want ? all i want is u to be normal again.... see someone specialist to cure u hunz....pls before its really too late.....coz sometime i really tired of talking to ya.....lets go towards our goal....when someone else ask ya to take care of ya health and to see the doctor, u really keep the msg and remember it for so long....but if i ? if i ask ya to go doctor or take care ? do u have any hit to the brains on that ? i'm writing this not to scold ya hunz...but i'm juz telling the story....dun get me wrong k ? i beg u.................. i want the real nadiah ~ pls.... give me back.......

Love Aidil....

to my beloved one.... nadz

2005-11-05T01:59:00.000+08:00

no matter how much i say i love you, it will still be me and you... hope u get wat i mean..... despite the fact that the quarrels we've done, the screaming and yelling that i done to ya, the harsh things that i've said at ya....etc ya still say that ya love me....i'm sorry hunz.....i will try to change for the better and i hope u play ur part too....try not to find things that can make me angry....and i will play my part.....simple u play urs and i'll play mine.....love ya hunz for wat ya are now, love ya hunz for wat u've done to me, u stole my heart before others do, u change myself to appreciate life while u urself sometimes doesnt, taught me to care for others while dont care wat people wanna say to ya, taught me how to smile like a lil baby etc..... hunz i love u more than anyone else, even if i say the gerls is beautiful, sexy or nice in my eyes u are 1001 times better.....like to talk to ya bout gerls coz thats wat i do with my frends but i didnt do anything stupid or nuts, i know my limits hunz and i draw a line..... i dont want ya to be juz my gf, u are my everything, fwens, best fwens, enemies, good fwens, gal fwens, bestest best fwens and my life partner.......all in 1..... dats y i like to share with ya not other people.....dat u must understand....if u dun like it tell it to me hunz, i dont want ya to keep to urself, tell me what u dun like bout me...in that way we can slowly change from our mistakes...... hope ya understand..... love ya hunz..... eternity........

Love Aidil....

a little something from me...

2005-11-05T01:36:00.000+08:00

hey there guys,
if you guys are reading this it means that we all have finish our school life and our enjoyable moments... i reckon all of ya are in NS now rite? i miss u guys arul, lionel, kumara, fairuz, calvin and the rest of the soccer guys..... not forgetting for the gerl next class... ellyssa my best fwen during my ite collage....... really miss u guys a lot.... miss the outings we had together, the pools we had together, the overnite we had together, the soccer match we had together when we were in sch, skips classes for soccer together, slacking at canteen and watched at gerls, play card game(taitee) together under block till get caught from the head of the school, too many to mention....i really miss it all....the chalet we had the last time we met was really really the enjoyable moments before ya all go in for NS.... i wonder when can we have moments like dat again? too many to mention....well guys how's NS? hehehe dont worry liao i'm goin in soon also..... we will meet in hell together.... hell in the cell !! ahakz.... when can we gather and play soccer again? hehehe looking forward to meet u guys.....life without u guys is like to live is to die..... ITE life rulz !!!!!! haha peace out !

thankish to my best fwen lil'lyssa aka spongebob(onli from me) haha

2005-11-01T11:32:00.000+08:00

like to send a many thanks to my bestest fwen ever for makin the blog for me again for makin this blog alive again.... thanks lil fwen.... and btw bile awak nak kasi pwesent kita ni ? kita tengah tunggu tau..... and yeah i owe ya chocs... juz like ur fwen say wave a lil chocs and she will cave in... thats wat i know since sch....and thats true.... hehehe see spongy, ur fwen knows ya aweady.....ahakz

to be continue........

Haiz so tired.....

2004-11-04T07:32:00.000+08:00

Juz came back hm....from school (soccer)...... very very tiring......but juz nw mr cheng our PE teacher should be the man of the match...hehehe he played so well !!!! but the very best part is....now i need to rush to work.......awwww man !!! cant enjoy today after soccer !!!! see ya guys at nite....tataz !!! :P bluekz !

Can't wait for soccer tmr.................

2004-11-03T16:17:00.000+08:00

And yes finally the day is over.......tomorrow will be a new day for me.....wednesday...hmm let me see wat do i have on wednesday......... soccer !!!!!!!!! Yesh and it's maybe the last day we will be playin soccer in school....because the exams are getting nearer....and the school will be closing soon.... :( can meet the guys and expecially my best train ride buddy.... elly !!! hehehe if ya see this take the train wit me even when its school holiday will ya??? Ehehehekz ...... And yes..for soccer tomorrow i heard 2 teachers will be playin...one is our class advisor mr david lee... and another one is the PE advisor....lookin forward for the soccer game....see ya guys in sch !!! tataz ! Hmmm actually its later.......not tomorrow....muahahahahaaaaaa

A Bad Dream..

2004-11-03T08:53:00.000+08:00

i was awaken by a really really bad dream today....my bike was out of control at the PIE route towards AMK....it hit a tree nearby the 3rd lane.....and i flung to the 1st lane hitting a curb on my head.....for an instance i am gone.......the dream really really scared me.....i do not want to think about it....me myself have a history on it....my best fren passed away due to a bike accident.....i hope this dream doesnt mean anything to me.....pls.....losing a best fren is like losing ur life.....i've had enough.....

After JaMMing................. ZzzZzzzzZzz.....

2004-11-02T16:35:00.000+08:00

juz got back home.....from jamming....really tiring....got some headache now..... :( and yeah.....!!! i juz got back from jamming with Liquid Steel baby !!!! They rock like hell !! \m/ peace to ya hafiz when ya are reading this one....ya really got talent on the guitar works...i juz like ya sound on the guitars.....muahahahahahaha :P ok ok overall...the jamming was ok....only i did quite a mistake on the arrangement of the songs....i screw up a little bit....but i manage to cover it all.....he say i'm 70% in their band....!!! dats a good sign.....but can i do it???? thats the main question which had been playin in my mind since after the jamming......hmmm......??? wat do u think guys?? should i be in their team??? \m/

JaMMing with Liquid Steel Today !!!!! Awww man!!!

2004-11-02T11:17:00.000+08:00

Ohh man....about 40 more mins i will be jamming with the steel's family.... LIQUID STEEL ROCKS BABY !!!! and i didnt prepare any songs for them !!! how can i do this??? i'm really stress !! help me !!!!!!!! argggghhh.... will tell ya guys later about the jamming when i got back from the studio later ........ hope everything goes fine.... \m/